- (*)Feelin: cold and hungry
- (*)Weather: hot and sunny
- (*)Fashion: off the shoulder pink top, studded jeans, white sneakers
- (*)HairStyle: straight out
Good afternoon,
Nothing much going on here. I'm at the library while my mom goes to the salon and get her hair done. It's chilly in here (I wish I brought a sweater with me).
Good news! I'm moving! my mom is getting a place (rather i should say, a condo). It's just going to be me and her. The funny thing is, we lived at this residence in October 2003-2004. And now we're moving back! I'm sort of happy because i missed living over there, and the community is real nice. The place is available on September 9th (I think). a day after my school starts. So yes, roughly things will be hectic moving things around and stuff. Plus on top of that getting things back on track. I know for a fact I'm going to have a difficult time adjusting to the place again. I somehow get used to things very quickly and warm up to new enviroments until I get quite comfortable where I am. But overall, i'm very happy and blessed i'm going back over there. And this will be a good change for me and my mother. Starting things out fresh all over again.
I MUST admit, i'm real nervous when school starts September 8th. I have NO CLUE of what teachers that I have and who's going to be in my class or what not. I'm being patient but rather curious lol. I really want to be prepared and start planning my goals for my junior year. At the same time I'm excited to be in the 11th grade, because i have 2 more years until I graduate! Yes 2007 here I come! As for education, i made a friggin promise to myself that I'm going to work REAL hard on my schoolwork and make it into the Honor Roll and make my mom proud. As for my love life, hmmmm...i'm not sure lol. But I just want to be successful and make (and keep) friends.
As for the drama, I know people will be mean and talk about me. So why not give them something good to talk about? lol. I know for a fact people will make fun of me because of my dark complexion but at the same time, I really don't care. those immature minded people are just talk, and they can't do anything about it on something I just can't help. They're going to make fun of me because i'm different and unique. and i'm not ashamed of that at all. i'm actually proud of that. It's hard trying to be accepted based on your looks, skills, integrity, charm, smarts etc. It really is! I don't mind pushing myself forward to become something grand in the future. I'm ready for a challenge.
Making mistakes? i'm good at that. shit i'm a human being. I'm not going to hide my flaws and put a mask over my face and think I'm "perfect" because i'm not. i want people to see the "real" me. I don't wake up in the morning feeling 100% all the time. there are days when I feel like crap just like everyone else. shit happens. and it's normal. because i'm going through things that a teenage female goes through. At times i may not feel my prettiest. but i don't like to compare myself with other girls. it's not comfortable, because it's showing that i'm not proud of myself. and i like to be proud of myself, it's actually fun!
Holy crap!, look at me babbling random things. it was just on my mind lol.
Ok i'm going to call my mom and tell her i'm ready to leave and i'm real hungry! LOL
C ya!
Love,
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*I want to change and make a difference*
15 *homies*.